Dogma and The universe
I knew what was happening at this group therapy, but I was powerless to help it. I have built such a wall of dogmatisim that everything that is said, social, spiritual or personal, goes through this filter and reformulates into either judgment, or pity. Tuesday (last night) I left the groups so angry, so rebellious, not so much towards them, but towards myself, that I couldn’t...ECT LOG: First day in group mind-warp
Last night was my first night of my four week voyage across the rolling waves of stale coffee in group therapy. It was an interesting night is all I can say. I’ve been in group situations before, but this guy leading this one, Mo, is an extraordinary person. And so freaking interesting, I wish I would have met him in a situation where he didn’t know I was a psychopath. The...ECT LOG: Bipolar Meds do funny things.. ...
Table of contents for ECT LOGECT LOG: Sleeping in ChurchECT LOG: how strange it is to feel okayECT LOG: Bipolar Meds do funny things.. and it’s just funny Okay.. don’t have much to report today. I basically felt “oaky,” which stretched over from yesterday, and the full dosage of my meds. But some funny things happen. Side effects. I’ve experienced these...ECT LOG: how strange it is to feel okay
Table of contents for ECT LOGECT LOG: Sleeping in ChurchECT LOG: how strange it is to feel okayECT LOG: Bipolar Meds do funny things.. and it’s just funny I feel so strange today. I feel okay. For the first time in maybe 4 years. All has been death and the devil’s ass for a decade, and today I feel okay. I know my pastor is against the pills, My brothers in Christ are...ECT LOG: What is ECT, History and Effect...
Table of contents for ECT LOGECT LOG: Electroconvulsive Shock Treatment soonECT LOG: My First day back on drugsECT Log: Dark Matter and the suicidal mindECT LOG: Mania is fun, till the parties overECT LOG: What is ECT, History and Effects Used extensively as a method for treating patients suffering from depression, electroconvulsive therapy, also known as electroconvulsive therapy or...(spoiler) The Beaver Movie Review
this is not a blow by blow, detailed esoteric review of the Beaver. It’s my own personal thoughts on the movie from a Bipolar point of view. I don’t see how this movie was made in hollywood with such a big budget. Mel Gibson must of pushed it through or financed it, I don’t know, but you don’t see big budget movies like this. It was such a strange pic, I almost...ECT LOG: Mania is fun, till the parties ...
Table of contents for ECT LOGECT LOG: Electroconvulsive Shock Treatment soonECT LOG: My First day back on drugsECT Log: Dark Matter and the suicidal mindECT LOG: Mania is fun, till the parties overECT LOG: What is ECT, History and Effects Last night my wife “tried” to have a talk with me about all my plans which I’ve made in the last three days. I suddenly decided to...ECT LOG: Sleeping in Church
Table of contents for ECT LOGECT LOG: Sleeping in ChurchECT LOG: how strange it is to feel okayECT LOG: Bipolar Meds do funny things.. and it’s just funny I had a crazy mania hang over this morning. I wrote two or three songs yesterday then decided I wanted to start playing live again so I stayed up late making profiles on music finder sites. I think I went a little too far...Poem: We’re Manic!
We’re Manic. Depression? Still in question Not for me My mother knows, I sleep, in shoes dirty clothes with lithium bottles strewn I chain myself in working panic She’s Manic She talks at speed too fast for God’s Prayer to read Excited, beyond the force - Indeed we’re manic compulsively freeSt Bruno Podcast: The interpreter: Trans...
We continue our conversation from the last edition (art as a living) on the common trappings of the artist in his/her professional life. We also talk about the “dark side” of the Artist and why their tends to be much more “Dark” art than uplifting...ECT Log: Dark Matter and the suicidal mi...
Table of contents for ECT LOGECT LOG: Electroconvulsive Shock Treatment soonECT LOG: My First day back on drugsECT Log: Dark Matter and the suicidal mindECT LOG: Mania is fun, till the parties overECT LOG: What is ECT, History and Effects 3rd day back on bipolar drugs. Last night was a horror. I got home from work, had a panic attack in the front yard, so went and sat in my truck to...ECT LOG: My First day back on drugs
Table of contents for ECT LOGECT LOG: Electroconvulsive Shock Treatment soonECT LOG: My First day back on drugsECT Log: Dark Matter and the suicidal mindECT LOG: Mania is fun, till the parties overECT LOG: What is ECT, History and Effects I have to say, I’m scared to death to go back on drugs for my bipolar. Since I got off pharmaceuticals, 6 months ago, I have built a whole new...Facebook not for the bipolor at heart
I got into facebook a few weeks ago, and like everything, got totally obsessed with it. I was one of those annoying people that fills up your wall with crazy shit. I actually held it together for awhile… with only a few posts here in there that make you scratch your head and say, was he joking, or is he kinda crazy? I’ve been kicked off numerous forums and social sites for...ECT LOG: Electroconvulsive Shock Treatme...
Table of contents for ECT LOGECT LOG: Electroconvulsive Shock Treatment soonECT LOG: My First day back on drugsECT Log: Dark Matter and the suicidal mindECT LOG: Mania is fun, till the parties overECT LOG: What is ECT, History and Effects I’ve been struggling with this thing they call bipolar disorder for many years. Some say it’s not real, some say it’s as real as a...DUNG: The Bipolar Beetle, megalomania
Here goes DUNG again, up to his biopolar ways. I relate to DUNG, because sometimes I believe in God, and sometimes I think I am...New Music
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